College is busy. I know I haven’t made a post in like a month or something. Part of that is because I’ve been busy, but a larger part has been that I don’t really know what I’m looking to get out of this blog.

On the one hand, it’s helping me write more (kind of) and it’s a great way to get my thoughts out of my head and into the void. On the other hand, though, what is the point of it? Is there really any purpose this blog is serving other than an outlet for me? I’m basically only journaling my thoughts. It might be helpful for some people to read one girl’s opinions of this world. But, it’s not like it’s a lifestyle blog or an advice blog or anything. I’d like it to be! I’d like it to grow into something like that, but how can it grow when I’m scared to share it with people?

I’m scared of everything. I’m scared of the future and what I want to do when I graduate. I’m scared of my assignments right now, in the J-school. For an introvert like me, it’s really intimidating to have to go out and take pictures of people or interview others for articles. It scares me. The College of Journalism and Communication’s career day is coming up and I’d love to go but I don’t have any qualifications to work for any of these people. I feel like I’m behind and I’ve barely started.

But anyways. I am going to try and keep up with the blog for now. Its good for me to have a website. Pretty soon I’m going to add a page with some photos I’ve taken for my photojournalism class and if I ever get published I’ll add a page of clips.

I know what I want to do with my life. It’s just really unclear from where I’m standing how I’m ever going to get there. Especially if I keep being this nervous about going out there and getting stuff done!

I know I have to.

But yeah… Bye for now!